missing.

there are days,

days where breathing itself

feels strenuous

and my heart wrenches.

days like today,

i just feel too much.

i miss him.

desperate times.

blue.

i have nothing to say

except

i'm sick of waiting.

death to movember

i'm so glad the end of movember

is fast approaching.

bring on decembeard!

legends of the stache.

despite my dislike for most moustaches,

i checked out this art show

@ the graffiti gallery

last night with my friend mike:

it was pretty rad.

my favourite piece involved

the swedish chef

hacking off kermit the frog's head.

(bork bork bork!)

all in all it was a good night!

i ran into some awesome people

that i don't see very often.

today marks the end of my official "week off".

i still have the weekend but

monday is looming.

in other news...

i decorated the house.

if i didn't do it this week,

i wouldn't have had time.

off to have coffee with a pal!

hold on.

i finished my final exams on friday for term 1.

this makes me beyond happy

due to the fact that i despised almost

every one of my classes.

a new term will bring many new challenges,

in particular, my surgical rotation.

i'm beyond apprehensive about it

& hope to regain some positivity

since so much of it was lost this term

while taking very uninteresting classes.

dating blows as usual

but i'm happy where i am

& with who i'm becoming.

i'm so grateful to have met

so many remarkable people

through nursing.

"i don't know what the key to success is,

but the key to failure is

trying to please everyone."

- Bill Cosby

this is me finally rested ^ .

it's a wonder what

catching up on sleep can do.

so far my week off has consisted of

sweat pants,

sleep galore,

girly movies,

snacks,

coffee,

& some much-needed catching up

with friends.

i've been thinking a lot lately

about how close i am to being finished my degree.

i feel like i just started yesterday,

& yet i'm almost at the half-way point.

i think that realization will help me

keep motivated to continue on...

there are days where

i can't even begin to glimpse

a hint of light

at the end of the tunnel

(keep on swimming).

a friend of friends passed away

last night/this morning.

while i didn't know him on

a personal level,

i can't help but feel affected by the loss.

life is too short,

& this feels uncomfortably close to home.

i can only hope that

those close to him

have the strength to hold on.

smoosh.

this sums up how

i feel about life as of late...

hockey buddy.

zev.

aw.

what gives?

sometimes hanging onto hope

starts to get old,

especially when a pattern of disappointment develops.

HOWEVER...

the hope remains

albeit hanging by a thread some days.

school is so-so.

i'm having a hard time staying motivated

due to the fact that

i have literally zero interest

in every class that i'm currently taking.

but, on the bright side of things,

my term ends in two weeks.

this week is the last week of actual class/clinical,

and next week is final exams.

boys continue to be complex,

unpredictable,

and complicated.

this is not news to me.

i watched this movie the other day:

it was AWESOME.

it resulted in

the perfect combination of

laughter and tears.

more ranting to come i'm sure.

for now, back to homework-land.