loved it.

"what is it that makes the women in my life

destroy themselves?"

the world breaks everyone...

the world breaks everyone,

& afterward,

some are strong at the broken places.

- ernest hemingway

i had an emotionally charged week.

it's difficult for me to even pinpoint why.

there were compounding factors.

the main one being 

my own reaction to it all.

i managed to hide it well

- a secret insomniac 

drowning in my own 

invisible monsters.

i have come to terms with the fact that

no one will ever really get it.

& that's okay.

i think what's important to note though,

is that someone finally 

seems to wholeheartedly accept it.

accurate:

Listen...

- Shel Silverstein

swoooooooooon.

sigh...

apparently a fellow nerd

to watch documentaries with

supersedes my past crushes

by infinity.

i had forgotten what it's like to

miss someone...

what a

[much-needed]

breath of fresh air.

tomorrow!

i can barely contain my inner band geek...

tomorrow night i'm going to the symphony

with an awesome fella!

can't wait.

ring out.

"you arrived & ordered stout,

i stared in wordlessness.

& how your face just fit

into every aching void ,

what i've always missed some way."

song for a lover of not so long ago.

i've buried you...

every place i move.

you keep ending up

in my shaking hands

i have buried you

with my shaking hands

you keep ending up

every place i been.

compliments.

i was having a conversation

late last night with

a certain dude

in which i mentioned briefly that

i am sometimes feel that

too intense for my own good....

to which he replied,

"maybe you are too intense

for the good of other masses,

but i like your fire,

& it is rare.

you are in a minority,

but you should embrace it"

uh...WOW.

perhaps i've met my match.

"if you don't like my fire,

then don't come around,

'cause i'm gonna burn one down."

the awful truth.

i feel like my heart & head

are on the verge

of exploding.

auld lang syne.

sooooooo,

i had the best new year's eve

that i've had in a very long time:

complete with a rad dude

& even a kiss at midnight.

(haven't had one of those in eons...)

2011 was awesome

but i have a feeling

2012 has even more in store.

happy new year, friends.

xo.