dilemmas.

to stay or go.

to persist or give up.

to fight or surrender.

to remain in comfort or throw caution to the wind...

hmmm..

this just about sums it up.

face value.

i think that sometimes 

things just have to be accepted

& appreciated

for what they are

- nothing more, 

nothing less.

for reasons 

no words can begin to explain,

there are people who

enter our lives 

& shake them to the core.

from the very first moment.

rather than deny that,

& walk away from 

the 1st thing 

that's rocked me 

this way

in years....

i'll take it for what it is,

hold onto it as long as i can,

& stop trying to

make it into something it's not.

so hard to do, so easy to say.

"they say if you love somebody

then you've got to set them free,

but i would rather be locked to you

than live in this pain & misery..."

avoid all entanglements.

"to love at all is to be vulnerable.

love anything, & your heart will 

certainly be wrung & possibly broken.

if you want to make sure of

keeping it intact,

you must give your heart to no one,

not even to an animal.

wrap it carefully round 

with hobbies & little luxuries;

avoid all entanglements;

lock it up safe in the casket or 

coffin of your selfishness. 

But in that casket -

safe, dark, motionless, airless

- it will change.

it will not be broken;

it will become unbreakable,

impenetrable, irredeemable."

- c.s. lewis

black.

i know someday you'll have a beautiful life

i know you'll be a star 

in somebody else's sky

but why,

why can't it be,

why can't it be mine?

"it's strange that words are so inadequate.

yet, like the asthmatic struggling for breath,

so the lover must struggle for words."

- t.s. eliot